Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Going to be a nice week
The Sun is shining. Temperatures will be in the 70s most likely. Trying to just be and touch people in a positive way, mostly online. I've been trying to get a date, but no luck with the two online sites I frequent. Probably trying too hard. Annie encouraged me to find another woman in an email shortly after the first visit. She has a boyfriend although I don't know how happy she is with him. She just considers our visits to be fantasy encounters. Well, I plan to make her fantasies come true when we next meet. This should be a really nice Birthday for her barring any accidents or illness. Just have a few things to do, but pretty much have her gifts in order. Had a dream where a friend of mine carried a heavy rock into what I think was a hospital room tonight. Am thinking that it means that he's carrying a heavy burden into the hospital with him. It might be his wife since she's in and out of the hospital. My life is pretty quiet, but then I am just trying to be in the Now, although my mind still drags me along quite a bit. It gets easier to learn how to disidentify from it the more I meditate and watch it. There was an article on the BBC website that premature babies suffer more from anxiety and have more withdrawn personalities possibly from brain damage suffered from the early birth, or perhaps it's a developmental issue since the last few months in utero are spent on lung and brain development. I didn't have that luxury when I was born. I'm lucky to even be here.