Thursday, November 10, 2005
Trying to wake up
Awoke from sleep around 2:30 PM. Corresponded via email with Stacey and George. Sent Annie some more flash videos via a URL. Having trouble coming to full consciousness. Went back to bed at 3:30, and meditated. Became present, but also sent Annie love and light and fantasized a bit about what our meeting will be like. Mostly just trying to send her love and peace and light. Shouldn't get my hopes or expectations up about a future event or that she will love me. That is for the future to decide. All fantasy is illusion and folly. Must remember the following quote from Tole:
As soon as you honor the present moment, all unhappiness and struggle dissolve, and life begins to flow with joy and ease. When you act out of present-moment awareness, whatever you do becomes imbued with a sense of quality, care, and love—even the most simple action. Do not be concerned with the fruit of your action, just give attention to the action itself. The fruit will come of its own accord. This is a powerful spiritual practice.
Cats stayed with me in bed while I meditated. Think they wanted me to stay up and visit, or maybe they needed the warmth. Bashful definitely found the best spot. Gotta get ready for work. Blessings to all! Love and light! Stacey, everything will be OK! Do not be anxious!
As soon as you honor the present moment, all unhappiness and struggle dissolve, and life begins to flow with joy and ease. When you act out of present-moment awareness, whatever you do becomes imbued with a sense of quality, care, and love—even the most simple action. Do not be concerned with the fruit of your action, just give attention to the action itself. The fruit will come of its own accord. This is a powerful spiritual practice.
Cats stayed with me in bed while I meditated. Think they wanted me to stay up and visit, or maybe they needed the warmth. Bashful definitely found the best spot. Gotta get ready for work. Blessings to all! Love and light! Stacey, everything will be OK! Do not be anxious!
